fire with fire

November 11, 2010

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness; it is not excitement; it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love,” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

– Louis de Bernieres (Captain Corelli’s Mandolin)



writing to reach you

September 6, 2010

so maybe i can’t do it alone.

i quit one of my passions because i want to grow.
i didn’t find meaning in what i did, unlike before.

i still play. but even now with the team getting together, i still yearn for something more.

and how i wish i could express it all. but i can’t.

i won’t try because i might never reach you.

villanelle: shadows

May 4, 2010

can longing erode believers,
because the absence is prolonged?
the web of dust motes sweep corners;

do emotions drive souls to song?
while rain softly pitter patters,
your absence still remain prolonged.

why does each year past take longer
to retract moments left undone?
the web of dust motes sweep corners.

don’t keep on waiting, move along
echoes of crawling hands linger,
louder, as absence is prolonged.

don’t we all come home to cancer,
blurring faith, what’s right and what’s wrong
so web of dust motes sweep corners?

what have you done after so long?
and all that’s left is a whisper.
my absence drags on, prolonged
the web of dust motes seep corners.

You are a wolf – one of the strongest and respected animals there are throughout history. The wolf is a determined, tough, and versatile creature found in almost any environment: from mountains to deserts to prairies. Although the wolf personality can represent the stre…ngth and ability that comes from a lone wolf, this is actually quite rare. Most of the time wolves, like in nature, thrive and survive in packs, coordinating in an organized manner within their society. Wolves also tend to often have many close and loyal friends around them to back them up in times of need just as they stand behind those they care about. In relationships, most wolves also remain faithful to their partner and maintain a strong friendship no matter what happens – they generally keep in contact with their past lovers and never forget the bond they have as companions. The wolf inspires strength, loyalty, and faith in others even in the darkest times. They are strong, deep-thinking, loyal personalities and can always be counted on in the end. If you look into a person with a wolf-like spirit, you realize that they have deep and powerful eyes that are hard to discern what they are thinking about or feeling. Wolves often may not show emotion as much as others, but inside lingers much thought and feeling. Howling at the full moon as the gentle breeze flows across the mountain side, the wolf reminds everyone to stand strong even in the darkest of nights.

it just might be proof that i’m a native at heart. 🙂


March 2, 2010

something to hope for:
possible molecular causes of Alzheimer’s disease

and by the way, i still haven’t found what i’m looking for.